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09/12/2001 Entry: "Useless Self-Centered Blather In The Eye Of The Storm."

What could I possibly say that hasn't been said? What is there that I could possibly say that would be even the least bit meaningful right now?
Maybe if I was in New York, or in Washington... but I'm in Ohio. Nothing happened here. Sure, Pennsylvania is one state over, but that doesn't mean anything. About the only unusual thing I saw today was eerily silent Ohioans, all queuing up at local gas stations and very carefully not looking at each other. I spent hours trying to get in touch with the local Red Cross, though, and I couldn't. That's Ohio for you... people quietly doing what needs doing, even if they don't look at each other while they do.
I don't have the faintest idea what I think, or what I feel. I want to kill everyone. I don't want to kill anyone. I'm angry, I'm sad, I'm numb. But mostly, I'm afraid.
Hell, I'm more afraid of my own government than of the terrorists right now.
Mostly, though, I just wish I knew where my mother was. That's all.

So I guess I don't have anything noteworthy to add to the day's events.
I'm down in my basement.
I'm not coming out.

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I share your feelings, Mooncalf, believe me. I also do not know what to think or feel. Last night, I did not feel like doing ANYTHING. I had hopes of getting some art doen after I studied, but that was before the tragedy. So last night came and I did not feel like doing anything. I feel anger and sorrow too. I am also ...uneasy with our own government, and what they might do, if they find out for SURE who did this.
All I can do is pray, and I will continue to do so for al those who suffered and still suffer, and I will continue to include you in my prayers, Moon, in hopes you will hear from your mother. Peace and Love always.

Posted by Wolf @ 09/12/2001 11:41 AM EST